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2011-10-29T23:03:00.000-07:00

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by sya lala

I wish i could give the world

2010-05-04T00:33:00.000-07:00

I wish I could give you;mom the world
Or anything you wanted,
I'd give you my own heart and soul
And leave my own heart haunted
I don't care.
I want to

I'd take upon myself to your life
With all its strife and pain,
And let you ease into some space
Where your could live again.

The pain for me would not be pain,
At least not for a while;
For I'd be doing it for you my dear smile,
And I would just to see your smile.
I'll try..
I want to..

I wish that I could take your heart
And cleanse it with all my tears,
And make your sorrow go away,
And answer all your fears.
with every single strength I have
For you my dear Mom

But loving is a hard, hard way,
With all the pain it brings.
And yet there is no other way
To touch the heart of things

I wish that I could do everything
but yet you only want one thing.
and it is not the amount of money
it's not the how big the building
yet you just only want
that I always..and always
thinking of you..
never ever put you aside..
remember you..
spend time with you..
I'll try my best
anything for you

New Year has come

2010-01-07T01:26:00.000-08:00

A brand new year
a new number has been added to the year
a year has pass flew by
right beside us
some of us has loss
some of us has gain
and most of us feel both

but it is not the matter
of what that have loss
and what we have gain
its just how much we can absorb
the very meaning of that little thing
and every big thing
even though that thing happens
is sooooo absurd

for me
NOW is for FOREVER
PAST is just for REMINDER.
LET IT BE
LET IT BE

There ... a full stop

2009-12-02T21:45:00.000-08:00

for some kind of reason...
i came to a time that i dont want it to end
ever...
and i mean EVER...NEVER..

for some kind of reason..
i found all the reasons again
to live
to love
to continue to give what i have
to a special girl
that come into my life..
man...
how can i ever says that I LOVE HER
if everything that i am doing doesn't seem enough
not even close to what I am feeling
deeply in my heart
u really are the one...
that stole my heart
and completely own it

For that reason
and that reason only
i getting scare d
scared by the past
getting scare of the future
remembering what happen in the past
just let me really scare that it will happen again
and suddenly
that feeling acknowledge myself
am i really scare that the past gonna be the present?
or I just scare to lose you?
and now I know...
U are the One
My ONE and Only...
My present and my future
MY LOVE.,..........

Mirror mirror on the wall

2009-11-02T04:31:00.000-08:00

a princess sit down in front of her mirror
looking straight and deep into it
suddenly she seems doesn't satisfied by the circumstances
and beginning to ask her magic mirror...

Mirror mirror on the wall
who the fairest of all
*silence*
no reaction
none..just nothing
~sigh~

Mirror mirror on the wall
who the dumbest of all
still....
*silence*
no reaction
none..just nothing
another silence reaction
~~hmmmmmm

Mirror mirror on the wall
why all of these keep happening to me
why are you just ....
why
why
why

and suddenly the magic mirror respond
have u put urself into other shoes
there are so many other fair people
maybe not from the outside
but fairest inside their heart and soul

have u put urself into other shoes
yeah maybe u r the victim
the dumbest as u think u r
but have u seen other people
that are mourn everyday with tears
just to be grateful to wake up each day
and to be alive

have u put urself into my shoes
u should be grateful
as i am just a mirror
that hang and lock on a wall
not have the chance to walk
not have the chance to have a heart
to fall and to give all the love that i have
if i have those hand i would SLAP U
"WAKE UP..!!WAKE UP..!!"
if i have those legs i would just walk away
than answering those stupid question...

haha...seems so long since my last entry...here and again I am...today I've wandering by news of people looking for sympathy...this entry is for all of you

What IF

2009-09-13T23:22:00.000-07:00

What if??
the sun never meant to be for the earth
the stars never meant to be shine with the moon
the trees never meant to be on the ground
the words never mean what it means to be what it should meant

Noone knows
But He does!!

What if??
we do what we want??
we did what we want??
we never know what the result
but He does..
but atleast we know that..
We the one who chose the beginning

Every Woman In The World

2009-08-02T06:01:00.000-07:00

Release

2009-05-20T09:40:00.000-07:00

I've been here for a long long time
waiting for something to be my biggest break
break me apart from all the histories
all the histories that has been kept me here
TRAPPED!!

Long I search
Now hope is I've found
hoping this will be the one
that gonna rescue me from this trap
THANKS!!

Times

2009-03-17T09:32:00.000-07:00

well its been awhile since i blogged into my so call english writting blog hmm what to say...what to expose...what to share..i wonder

Seconds...
Minutes...
Hours...
Days...
Weeks..
Just a period of time that passing by
either I want it or not
I cannot stop the time
I cannot turned back the time
I cannot foward the time
Even though I tried
I surely fail
but ..
Here I am
still here
writing everything that comes from the heart
wishing that I can turn the time back
wishing that I can change everything
but I can only hope
the beauty will come back into my life
giving me the meaning of L.O.V.E
the word that I think I already don't know
What is the meaning
How is it sound
How does it feel

Sitting here alone

2009-03-11T01:29:00.000-07:00

Sitting here alone
trying to forget
everything
the past
the present
to hope for the future
that not yet been written
to be something beautiful

Sitting here alone
still trying to forget
but the more i tried
the more it stucks
the more it keep haunting
my heart
my mind

Sitting here alone
still trying
still hoping
even though i said i let u go
but
i really hope
that you'll be back here
to my heart
to my life
to be the past
to be the present
and to be the most beautiful future
that i ever dream for

Sitting here alone
alone
and alone
but keep waiting
and keep hoping
for the love that used to shine
will be glowing once more..
till the end of time

just another words

2009-02-27T04:37:00.000-08:00

words are use meant to be peaceful for me

giving all the words that i wanna hear

but now words are just another words

trying to accept the fact

but giving all the worst feeling in my heart

Why?

just another questiong that been haunting me

when everything is just seem to be great

it suddenly just become worst

every single minutes

every single second

every single breath

Walking

2009-02-21T23:48:00.000-08:00

Just making the steps

to keep going on with the times

that kept me from thinking about the past

hopefully all of them will be gone

the harder i try forget

the harder they came to remember

so many memories

even happy memories that makes me wanna cry

Why I love you

2009-02-16T09:04:00.000-08:00

I love you

From day one you and I've been friends
Hanging out,having fun,chillin
Now I know at times I got crazy
Silly ways and acting shady

You see things in me no one sees
You hold it down for sheezy
Now I have friends I thought were true
But no one more true than you
So what am I gonna do?

It took a while for me to see
How special you treated me

Maybe that's the reason why I love you
You're my heart girl
And with all the crazy things that I do
You're still here girl
No one else can make me feel like you do
You've shared my world
Baby that's the reason why I love you

No other girl is quite like you
Not Even close to you
And no one has my back like you do
Girl you're one of a kind
And you blow my mind
And I'm glad to say you're mine

Girl you're the one who changed me
From a boy into a man

Maybe that's the reason why I love you
You're my heart girl
And with all the crazy things that I do
You're still here girl
No one else can make me feel like You do
You've shared my world
Baby that's the reason why I love you

It took a while for me to see
How special you've treated me

Maybe that's the reason why I love you
You're my heart girl
And with all the crazy things that I do
You're still here girl
No one else can make me feel like you do
You've shared my world
Baby that's the reason why I love you

Maybe that's the reason why I love you
You're my heart girl
And with All the crazy things that I do
You're still here girl
No one else can make me feel like you do
You've shared my world
Baby that's the reason why I love you

I love you
Baby that's the reason why I love you

Just Damn!!

2009-01-24T04:13:00.000-08:00

Here i am again...
sitting here mourning about today...yesterday....
not knowing what will happen tomorrow ...
not knowing what will happen even after this time of hour

I'm done being blaming for those thing I didn't do
I'm done being blaming for those thing I didn't wanna do
how can I see these unfortunate events will come to me
how can I see
I am not an interpretor
who can see the future
I am just a normal human being

and yet
here I am...
Being blamed for those things
and yet
here I am ...
just accept the accuses
just because I want to make they happy
but yet
I keep saying to myself
"Stop IT !!Just STOP IT!!"
but yet i am a clown
make everyone happy but not myself
and I just keep...
Going on and on and on

2009-01-19T20:54:00.000-08:00

Times after times
I sat down here
To ease everything that I felt
Trying to be the best that I can
Do what ever I can do
To be a better man

because love is just a thing

that u have to sacrifice something

to make it the best love you ever had

Some people says that

If you love something

Then you have to let it go

If it yours it will come back

To you arms

But I wont do that

Because my love

Is something that cannot be describe

I wont let it go

I just wont

Flower in the desert

2008-12-15T19:19:00.000-08:00

Flower In The Desert

Dewa

Why..
You always have something nice to say..
Makes me sway..
And why..
Does my heart keep beatin fast..
When you..Kiss..kiss..my lips..
When all the sugar has gone..
I don't know how..
But you..
Make everything feels like ..the very first time
U..Can make a man like me..
Fallin' in love again..
Though loving you is breaking all the rules..
Please..tell me what to do you are

#Reff#:
YOU ARE THE FLOWER IN A DESERT..
THAT'S WHAT YOU ARE..
FLOWER IN A DESERT..
THAT'S WHAT YOU ARE..
YOU BRINGS ME
JOY AND HAPPINESS WHEN I'M ALL ALONE

Why could you always make me feel the same..
I love your way
Though i should have known this is just a game we play
Hey smiling face..
Have you ever really loved a man..’till you sway
Or have you just been taking all these things for granted

Standing here for you

2008-12-15T18:44:00.000-08:00

The Promise

If you need a friend,
don't look to a stranger,
You know in the end,
I'll always be there.
And when you're in doubt,
and when you're in danger,
Take a look all around,
and I'll be there.
I'm sorry, but I'm just thinking of the right words to say.
I promise
I know they don't sound the way I planned them to be.
I promise
But if you wait around a while, I'll make you fall for me,
I promise, I promise you I will.

When your day is through,
and so is your temper,
You know what to do,
I'm gonna always be there.
Sometimes if I shout,
it's not what's intended.
These words just come out,
with no cross to bear.
I'm sorry, but I'm just thinking of the right words to say.
I promise
I know they don't sound the way I planned them to be.
I promise
But if you wait around a while, I'll make you fall for me,
I promise, I promise you...

I'm sorry, but I'm just thinking of the right words to say.
I promise
I know they don't sound the way I planned them to be.
I promise
And if I had to walk the world, that make you fall for me,
I promise you, I promise you I will.

I gotta tell ya, I need to tell ya, I gotta tell ya, I gotta tell yaaaa ...
I'm sorry, but I'm just thinking of the right words to say.
I promise
I know they don't sound the way I planned them to be.
I promise
But if you wait around a while, I'll make you fall for me,
I promise you, I promise you...

I'm sorry, but I'm just thinking of the right words to say.
I promise
I know they don't sound the way I planned them to be.
I promise
And if I have to walk the world to make you fall for me,
I promise you, I promise you I will ...
I will...
I will...
I will...

Love

2008-12-09T23:22:00.000-08:00

If you read this..
Stop doing everything else
clear your mind and think for a moment
think about the love in your heart
the miracles ....
the feel of happiness
how the complete you heart
giving the full figure of the love puzzle

Then...
I start thinking of her and then ask myself, why?
Why do I love her? I think and smile,
because I know the list could run on for miles.
The whisper of her voice, the warmth of herr touch,
so many little things that make me love her so much.
The way she support me, and help with my emotions,
the way that she care and show such devotion.
the way she hold me with the warmth of a blazing fire.
The way her eyes shine when she look at me,
lost with her forever is where I want to be.
The way that I feel when she is there by my side,
a sense of completion and overflowing pride.
The dreams that I dream, that all involves her,
the possibilities I see and the things we can do.
How you finish the puzzle that lies inside my heart,
how that deep in my soul, she are the most important part.
I could go on for days, telling of what I feel,
but all that she must really must know is my love for her is real.

The Way I Am

2008-12-02T23:14:00.000-08:00

Sometimes we just want to be everybody
to keep everyone happy
but why should you do that?
if you want to change
that is your choice

The way you lived
the way you are
are simply making the all of us unique

so for all of you that doesnt like
the way I am
while the one i loves just share and accept me
for what I am now
I just tell them
"That is your problem to bare
because I likeee It"

Words

2008-11-29T07:58:00.001-08:00

There are so much thing you can do with words....sometimes you just messing around with the words what you thought it just a words and soon it will fade in times..but come here and sit with me and here is my words

Words
the true meaning of words
has never ever been known
everything that came out from your mouth
everything that you thought
everything that you typed
everything you read
is all Words

If you get mad
You'll say everything that have been kept
without thinking the consequences
after that you sat down and think
and hope
hope that the person you yell
the person you mad of
will forget everything

if you in love
you want to say everything nice
romantic
you think before you say
and say the words that will blow away
all the problem
giving them happiness

that is the power of words
if you says it right
if says it in right time
it means everything
Everything to everyone

Away

2008-11-18T20:55:00.000-08:00

have you ever wonder
to walk away from everything
just being away
alone !!
When you are not been appreciated
for the smiles you creates
for the efforts you made
for everything you did
being blamed everything you didnt made

And then the feel just come out from your heart
to stop caring about each others..
to stop laughing
to stop doing everything
and then all you want
is just make the steps
to walk
AWAY!!!

Confused

2008-11-16T23:53:00.000-08:00

Simply Now And then
i just dont know what been happened to me
i been keeping to feel
that something wrong will happen to me
something terible
a nightmare in reality
but know i just dont know
my heart still keep beating
faster everyday
misery just keep haunting my life
but why?

just need help
for what i need help?
i dont even know

Beautified by Love

2008-10-29T23:44:00.000-07:00

Being here by myself
i waited to see and capture the sunrise
but i destined not to
but here i saw
a couple walking along the beach
pleasuring the view of the sunrise
one word can describe them
LOVE

For me Love is a mystery
where no one can solve
where everyone want to feel
the beauty of love

Love is unique
one of the mysteries of the world
that still hidden by the eyes
but can feel through the hearts

But that is just the meaning of love
BEAUTIFULL

At The Beautiful Scenery of A beach

2008-08-22T02:29:00.000-07:00

It seem a day i sat down here
alone at the beach
looking back the days i've been through
far away from the city
far away from the problems
it feels so peaceful
so cool

here there so quite
no even a single sound
i feel so distress
no bad influence
and no hates
just me and myself
and the nature it self
how nice is it
i cant tell
but i do hope that peoples
can see what i saw
fell what i felt
how peaceful and happy we can be
if we put aside all the hatress
and all negatives feeling
till now i still hoping
that one day it will happen

2008-08-22T01:42:00.000-07:00

MIRRORS

What can i say about mirrors i saw
what can see with the mirrors
we can see ourselves
the exact form of us
but why i rise out about MIRRORS
because we always forget
the other use of the mirrors
we use to critic about the others
but ever we look at ourselves
that we are actually not even perfect
not even close to perfect
we are just humans

At The Dawn

2008-08-22T01:37:00.000-07:00

We Used to forget what are our objectives in our live.
We used to dream
We used to hold the dream
But then we always to keep on moving
further from than what are we suppose to do

For That
Forgive me my friends
If Im in one of those days
where i Forgot about you
Forgive me my friends
If i forget about our promises
forgive me
FORGIVE ME

The Life Of The Fishermans

2008-08-22T01:27:00.000-07:00

We are always thinking what are we want to eat..Breakfast...Lunch ... Dinner... Even Supper
Seafoods, TOmyam and such more kind of thinks that we want..ever think on how the kind of life the ones that been captures all the kind of fishes just to fill our need ..ever noticed how is their life??

This is one of them that just working all day long to make money where we spent almost most of ours .

but then they still have their friends in filling their life.happy n peaceful without need to thinking how the world affect them.

strength and desire to live is two of things that help them throughout the days..to take care of their families is the most priority rather than themselves

smokes of the cigarettes is just to help them to ease down the pain they have to live everyday.